I feel like myself was in a chaos , in mindset ,emotion, life. I can't find a space for myself.
See, every time my blog post is in negative , now again, i don't want it....
I just want to be happy , smile a lot , or when i was unhappy , there is someone who can smell it and make me happy..
I want smile like this-->
I dislike people who easily throw tantrums to others before he/she know the right and wrong . Why did people think throwing tantrums is a way to solve problem? It just make the case worst. But sometime i did it as well, lol~ So , i dislike myself sometime...See, i'm so self- contradictory..
Every time i go to interview, i tell them i am an optimist , i think positively , i like to create a joyful atmosphere and make laughter to be contagious..yeah , i didn't tell lie but all these are toward to others not myself , i think negatively , i make myself can't move out from the past pain..always struggling in no why?
Few days ago, i met someone called J.Kwan , she is an actress, she is so expressive and strong minded. I am so admire of her confidence. I want to be like her in long time ago , to be open-minded, bold to act ,express in front of crowded. But seems like something was impeding me ...I so lack of confidence and often doubt myself , can't affirm myself . WWWWhat is that?
J.K (Malaysia)
I don't like to write emotional post, i will more keen on write some opinion , judging, analyse posts ! But i think that i still haven reached that certain stage and level .
I know my weakness well , really ! Am i? LOL~
I really want and will make a change on myself.
Really CHANGEABLE?
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